You’re 6 months young.

I’d say, “Where has the time gone?”, but I think I’d be lying. Every time I look back to your birth it feels so new, while at the same time most of me knows that so very much has happened since your birth. Enough to fill pages that have yet to be written.

I want to thank you again for coming to join us here on Earth. You are a true blessing and exactly how you described yourself to be in our connections womb-side. There isn’t a part of you I dislike and I fall deeper in love with you every day.

As if right on time you’ve just jumped a few new levels from where you once were weeks ago. You struggled to get here, but you’re now in your happy place having gracefully entered a new phase of your development. You’re constantly playing with your feet, you’re very vocal (in every octave you can be), you’re singing, you’re (almost) saying “ma ma” sounds, your legs move wildly like someone in Riverdance, you giggle at tickles, you look me right in the eye from a few inches away and take in my face, you’re constantly entertained by your big sister, your personality is starting to really show, and I caught you stick your foot in your mouth on your six month birthday. I can see how much your little body is getting antsy to move - the red marks on the inside of your feet from rubbing together, your toenails and fingernails trimming themselves from digging your baby claws into things - and it feels like you’re raring to go, meanwhile you’re working the same steady pace your sister followed just two and a half years ago. Same same, but different, as we say.

So far you’re not too keen on women, you love men though. And you have a really big soft spot for me. Something tells me it’s not just because I’m mama and I carry your food in my boobies. Just as you described in our last meeting before you came to us physically, you and I have a special bond that’s different than the more obvious one your sister and I have. Ours is subtle, yet strong, peaceful and trusting. You are proving to be a very calm and peaceful baby, easy to love and care for and I believe that to be true because of the bond we share.

Six months has felt like an eternity in the most precious way. I’m hoping time doesn’t begin to blow past as you quicken your pace. But such is life. Just watching videos of your sister from one year ago I can’t believe how much she’s advanced since then. I’m sure the same will happen with you. I’ve come to know that the best way to hold on to memories is to be present enough to fully experience them, and to be disconnected for long enough that time becomes irrelevant.

I once worried that I wouldn’t be able to observe your life the same way I did your sister’s when she was young - capturing photos and videos of you daily, having intimate moments together throughout the day, being besties. However, I now know the obvious…that, of course, I can’t do that, but if I protect our special moments - morning and afternoon sleepy time feeds, hours where your sister is with her grandparents or her father, and moments watching you and your sister discover each other, then we’ll have a memory all our own. One we create and share together as a family, which is just as special and bonding. Just something else you promised me.