One thing at a time.
I should really be writing these things down more often, but today you rolled over for the first time all by yourself! Just like when you spun yourself around in your playpen for the first time, we weren’t watching. I came downstairs and asked your father if he put you on your tummy, and he replied with, “I don’t know. She was always like that.” I’m so proud of you.
You’ve recently hit a number of developmental milestones that make me wonder whether I’ve forgotten when they typically happen or if you’re ahead of the game. All of a sudden you’re humming, using your hands to put things in your mouth, using your feet to play with hanging objects, having your first vocal pitch shift, seeing us from a ross the room, giggling and nearly breaking out into laughter, and now rolling over.
Much like when your sister was younger, I thought I should record more progressions. Then I decided that my phone’s date capture on photos and videos would be useful enough to mark milestones. But I’ve been thinking to myself how if it were me, I’d want to read through my own childhood development in great depth one day, so maybe I really should be tracking yours more thoroughly.
I guess that’s the whole point of my writing to you in this way. Again, I wish I did it more. More often than not I’ve been falling asleep with you girls at night not having brushed my teeth or washed up for bed and still in my daytime clothes. It’s been a guilty pleasure of mine and I won’t apologize for it (not that anyone’s asked me to).
In times like right now, where you got up overnight and I used it as an opportunity to have a snack and feed you back to sleep in the chair, I’ve used my time not so wisely by wasting it on social media, online shopping, or catching up on messages and emails (the last one not so wasteful, but a necessary routine that ties up my day and keeps me on top of things). But sometimes I have moments like this, where I need to capture life and my thoughts, and so here I am.
It’s an absolutely exhausting job mothering two little ones. Not that I’d trade it for anything (other than maybe 5 minutes of solitude to poop in private once in a while). Days fly by without barely a chance to do these things, let alone brush one’s teeth before bed, and lately I’ve noticed how I could benefit from a little more structure in my life - holding a daily (flexible) schedule, for instance. That would certainly give me some time to squeeze this type of craft in. That and cutting out distractions like social media. There are many more worthwhile things in life than the internet and while I’m taking a pause from posting online, I should also take a full break from technology to do them - reading and writing, colouring and meditating to calm my nervous system, crafting or cooking, or just resting with a cup of tea, all things I’ve been craving more of and can’t seem to find the time (hint: I have the time). These devices really are vices and get the better of us.
Side note: why do birds start chirping at 3am? That seems far to early a time.
Anyway. I guess I have some work to do to strike that balance, but for now, if you and your sister could stop growing up so fast that’s be great.
