Our interconnectedness.
I’m sitting here with you in my lap, draped over one arm and resting your head on my breast as you sleep, fingers passively caressing my exposed torso. As I always do, I’ve just stared at you in awe of your miraculous beauty contained in such a small form, wishing for it to never end and wondering how I’ll slow time and preserve these precious moments.
Though you are growing, I’ve noticed more and more lately just how interconnected we are - you, me, and your sister. By design and (I believe) because we experienced your undisturbed natural birth together, this comes as no surprise. We’re fortunate, as well, to benefit from a higher level of consciousness and appreciation for our interconnectedness than most may have, that which I’ve made a point of cultivating in my awareness over the last decade or so. Knowing this, we’ve all chosen a life together for the very purpose of benefitting from our compatability.
When it comes to reading each other’s needs, some things come easier than others and I’m loving picking up on how our bodies naturally sync and respond to one another. For instance, the other night I was downstairs while you girls were sleeping when all of a sudden my nipples began to tingle. My instincts told me to check the monitor and there you were, starting to root for my breast. Amazing.
Over the past few weeks I’ve noticed something else completely magical to the naked eye. Our sleep rhythms sync at nighttime, most notably those of you and your sister. A lot of nights when I put you both to sleep, you fall asleep at the same time and if I’m going to sleep with you, I too will follow this pattern - a natural flow of sleepy-time hormones passing between us. This is such a benefit for a good night sleep that I’ve come to embrace an early bedtime more effortlessly, more likely to succumb to my body’s cries for rest and foregoing personal hygiene until sometime either overnight or upon waking in the morning.
You two girls also hold space for each other’s needs. On days when the collective energy is clear and one of you begins to cry, the other pipes down allowing the focus to shift where needed - almost as if you’re telling me, “It’s okay, mom. I don’t need you right now as much as she does. Please look after her completely.” Even today, you were already whining mildly when your sister came inside crying for me. You settled almost immediately to allow her my full attention, a grace that hopefully won’t spoil between you as you get older.
I’ve noticed, too, just how effortless it is to care for you. At first I told myself it was because I’d done it before with your sister and because she wasn’t so easy to take care of that you seemed like a breeze. Then I checked myself and quickly realized that more than anything it wasn’t her fault or anything much about her personality that caused it. More likely, I forced myself to work against your sister’s innate rhythms rather than with them, whereas with you I’m naturally responding to you as you need me. Because I’m allowing you to set the pace, I don’t have to question your needs. Rather, they’re more obviously presented and, relevant to the topic of interconnectedness, my body is more in tune with yours. It’s a beautiful thing because it allows me to be less surprised and reactive when your needs puncture the flow of our day. Of course, it helps that I often set minimal expectations for our days and try to allow things to happen when they can, not when they must. Again, I would attribute this to our footing provided by your natural birth.
And then there’s the ridiculously intertwined female lineage you’ve entered into, not that I need to tell you that. You knew what (or who) you were getting into and we are so blessed to have you join the team, so to speak. Our powers run deep and don’t begin and end with how wild our dreams are.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how I’ll teach you girls the power of intuitive thought - both what it is and how to strengthen and use it. I figure the more I can use relatable terms and context, the better you’ll be able to grasp it and the more likely you’ll be to utilize it to your advantage. Our society can get so wrapped up in not believing the unseen. We also seem to place spirituality on a pedestal when honing our powers that we forget they exist within us already and are constantly showing themselves to us in the simplest of ways, we just have to have our senses turned on. This is what I’ll open your eyes to as early as I can so you’re never scared of or surprised by what you can feel and witness within the deep interconnectedness of us all.
