38 weeks.

We’re here, baby. Nearing the end. It really hit me this week just how close we really are. Will I be ready to ask you to come? When will that resounding feeling burst through me, readying us both for what’s next? I know it’s not time just yet, but we’re almost there. I can feel it. Almost taste it. Experience it. Wow…

It’s almost as if I’m turning back the clock to when your sister was born, although this time around I have much different preparatory feelings around birthing you. What I’m referring to, baby is the mothering aspect of the experience. After having raised your sister for more than two years, it feels almost odd to go back and do it all over again for you.

People told me the years would fly by, but they truly haven’t. I’ve been blessed with a life that doesn’t require a clock or calendar to follow and flow in order to function. No job to speak of, either. It’s been blissful and I’m grateful for it all. It’s allowed me to immerse myself into the thick of parenting, forgetting all about time and space, which carries new meaning to me now anyway.

I just feel like I’m so far ahead in parenting that I’m going to re-learn a lot of things, some common sense, others not so much. But I know your presence will bring it all back naturally. You are magic, after all.

As our face-to-face approaches, I can’t help but think of all the women in the world who have gone through this phase of motherhood - labour and delivery. It’s big, and so is the pool of women who’ve been through it…obviously. How have they moved through pregnancy? Did they embody their transformation? Did they notice the opportunity for personal discovery that birthing a child provides?

These things are all I’ve thought about for the past 2+ years and with labour and delivery around the corner, the sheer volume of the situation is something I both welcome and cherish. Though, in its totality, it is also quite hard to fathom. There are moments where I come to the realization that labour could begin at any time, and I think, “What should I do?”. Intrinsically, I know what I would do and that steadies me. The excitement alone would allow me to shut everything out and become one with you.

Let’s continue to allow our connection to unfold intuitively. Our time will come, soon.