We’re almost there, baby.

I write this to you, my second child, with conflicting feelings. I know I’m coming out of the Quiescence phase of pregnancy and happily resting into the Tides before The Breakers set in (transferred from The Holistic Stages of Labour). The last month has been the most challenging in many ways, starting with physical limitations and ending in the immense realization that space and time are shifting for us as I write this.

Little AB can sense your arrival as she enters her jealousy phase and beams excitement, all at the same time. I can feel you coming closer to us and I’m resisting. As much as I want you here, I will miss our time together greatly. I have loved having you live and breathe life inside of me, sensing your daily movements and your personality blossoming.

For the past few weeks since you started getting into your ready position, which AB didn’t do so much of before labour, I’ve felt the imminent nature of your arrival, speeding things up in my mind while I know we still have time left. While my mind has been focusing on last minute details as I secretly panic you may be shifting timelines on me, I feel I’m missing out on being intentionally present and alone with you in the most tender time of our togetherness. We humans are so good at distracting ourselves.

My love, I’m almost ready to start calling you in. While my body filters out the remainder of my tension, anxiety, and barriers to labour, I’m finding myself shifting into the space of pure readiness. I’m craving it. I can taste it, feel it, breathe it to life. Please wait for me, I’m almost there.